It's not Rain False

I can't get out from the thoughts of you
Now, I know that between us is over, it's the end....
I'm just disappointed in myself for still keeping you in my head
Since the rain is falling, I think I might fall as well...

Well this doesn't mean that I miss you... No !!! it doesn't mean that...
But the fact I still keep opening the raw memories of you, that is the thing why I just disappointed in my self!
I don't even make the effort to escape...

Now I just try and always try, to making  the excuse that it's all memories...
So I can take a step forward...
Now I just keep telling to myself, that "I already erased all about you, and I emptied out all of you"...
But why when the rain falls again, all the memories of you that I hid with effort, it all come back....

damm!!! I hate it !!!

To you, now there is no path for me to return right?? and looking at your happy face, I will try to laugh and happy too... #still trying until now

What can I do about something that already ended???
I'm just regretting after like stupid fool I am...
Rain always falls, so it will repeat again, but when it stop, that's when I will stop as well

*still can feel the pain