It's not Rain False

I can't get out from the thoughts of you
Now, I know that between us is over, it's the end....
I'm just disappointed in myself for still keeping you in my head
Since the rain is falling, I think I might fall as well...

Well this doesn't mean that I miss you... No !!! it doesn't mean that...
But the fact I still keep opening the raw memories of you, that is the thing why I just disappointed in my self!
I don't even make the effort to escape...

Now I just try and always try, to making  the excuse that it's all memories...
So I can take a step forward...
Now I just keep telling to myself, that "I already erased all about you, and I emptied out all of you"...
But why when the rain falls again, all the memories of you that I hid with effort, it all come back....

damm!!! I hate it !!!

To you, now there is no path for me to return right?? and looking at your happy face, I will try to laugh and happy too... #still trying until now

What can I do about something that already ended???
I'm just regretting after like stupid fool I am...
Rain always falls, so it will repeat again, but when it stop, that's when I will stop as well

*still can feel the pain

Memories

All the memories of hate and the lies
Don't you know eventually we'll pay the price
All the hopes and the dreams will survive
Reunite we got to keep our faith alive

So there you have it my whole life with all it's memories
I'm try to figure out how to set all of my pain free
Sometimes I wish that I could turn the hands of time back
So I could rewrite the wrong and put my life back on the right track.....

If I fall two times I come back on my third
I'll never give up, And that's my word
if I fall five times I come back on my sixth,knocked me down, I still won't give up...
If I'm knocked 7 times I come back on my eight, and that's my word

All the memories of hate and the lies
Don't you know eventually we'll pay the price
All the hopes and the dreams will survive
Reunite we got to keep our faith alive ...

I'm in my room, feeling broken and frozen
Pray, why is it so difficult to bear responsibilty????
The "imountain" of my life is too high
No matter how I climb so high, Istill can't see the top
Is too exhausted... So I slow down, So I don't lose control

I'm gonna pray and sing a song for the better day
I want to fly, I want to be free
I search my memory for all I have lost
I want to play with my childlhood friends again
Lying on the ground and gazing into the endless sky

I will lose to much if I stop "risin"
I've found my comford, I can try to feel
I find it in my mother's and my fathers delicate face
I will bringing the future closer...